Day 1: Ana Boot Camp Diet

So,
Breakfast: Nothing.
Lunch: Mountain dew 158 kal
Dinner: 1/2 Sandwich with ham and cheese 151 kal
Snacks: 1 Small green apple 65 kal

= 374kal

I was pretty bad and purged half of that cheese sandwich and now i'm hungry again which is not good i guess but  i could have gotten away with that whole sandwich which was 303 kals in the first place. I just felt too full, i bet some of you know that dreadful feeling, you just feel like your gonna explode and i don't like that feeling at all so i just decided (well i didn't really decide i just did) to get rid of it. I will just have to live on water for the rest of the evening, which is fine by me it fills me up in no time. Oh, and the cigarettes help too.

On another topic i have been reading some blogs on here where people are talking about having too eat with there family and or pretending to have eaten something during the day, I have no such problem my mom works during the day until about 4-5pm and always takes a nap after coming home until about 7-8 a clock and we rarely eat dinner except on special occasions so that makes this whole thing so easy! she never asks me what i ate during the day nor does she force me too eat and that is probably because most of the time when i eat she is there and i do that so she wont get suspicious which happily she never does and why should she? I have never showed that i had a problem with food or anything except when i kept food journals because she then sometimes asked how many calories i had eaten that day and i would tell her too guess and she replied on one occasion ''1,200 ?'' And i remember feeling so disgusting I mean do i then look like i'm stuffing my face with over a thousand calories every single day? That day i had eaten about 400 kals and told her that it was 900.

So if anybody's reading this tell me some of you tips and tricks about how you hide the fact that you'r not eating for example: Shaking the toaster over a plate so crumbs fall out and it looks like you just had a toast or pouring a bit of milk into a bowl and a little bit of cereal so it looks like you just had a whole bowl of cereal. And then maybe i'll do a blog about hiding the fact that you haven't eaten anything that day.

The diet i'm starting=

So it begins.

I really don't know how too even begin this blog, but i will anyway. It's about 2 am as i am beginning to write this, what this blog will mostly be about is dieting or me trying too reach my goal weight or something along those lines probably some short blogs about fashion or makeup even my personal life, I'm not quite sure yet but i have named this Adria's Diet so it will most likely be about my dieting progress and what i do too keep myself on track.
 I should probably have said in the beginning of this entry that my name is Adria and i weigh 56 kilos at this moment and my goal weight is 50 kilos (i really don't feel like converting the weight at this moment if you live in the states I'm about 123 pounds right now and my goal weight is about 110 but don't quote me on that.)  I guess the first time i was ever conscious about my weight was when i was 11 years old, and i remember the exact moment it happened it was when a relative of mine asked me if i had put on weight i felt completely devastated i just replied with ,, i don't know, i don't really keep track of my weight ´´ Well my memory at least tells me that i said something along those lines. But what is funny about this little story is that probably about thee weeks later she asked me if i had lost weight, at least that's quite funny in my head because i was so young at the time, But i think this will be enough for tonight.
Oh well, sweet dreams xo